Today, I'm happy to announce that we have a guest post from my dear, sweet, wonderful friend Anna Kate Prum. In the blog world, she's known for her baking blog Sugar and Stuff (I highly recommend the sourdough bread and poppyseed chicken casserole) and most recently, she joined forces with her twin sister Sara Beth as a contributor to the highly regarded "Idaclare".
Beyond her fabulous blogs, Anna Kate has a tender, compassionate, encouraging heart. She loves God and she speaks such truth and wisdom into the lives of those around her. She deeply cares for the poor and those in need. She's also working on getting her masters in counseling, which is going to be such a gift to the world. It's already a gift to me as I feel like she gives me free therapy sessions through e-mails, phone calls, and cups of tea just by listening and loving me. AND she's a fabulous writer. Anyways, I'll stop talking now and hand you over to Anna Kate...
I've been mulling over these questions for the past three months: How do I continue to pursue a God about whom I have lots of questions? How do I continue to believe in the love of God when much of what I look around and see—in my own life and in the world—is brokenness, sorrow, pain, and poverty? In some ways, I think these questions will "plague" me for much of my life. And yet, I want to keep knowing and pursuing God.
There is no doubt in my mind that He is with me, for me, and even guiding me. But many times, my questions seem to deter me from seeking Him. It is so easy for me to stop pursuing God, and stop believing that he loves me deeply when I have big questions about Him, about my life, about the world.
But...I've also been mulling over this realization: God is big enough for our questions. He does not leave me, even in the midst of my questions. And more than that, these questions are somehow part of a beautiful story that He's writing for me. It is my hope and prayer that I would learn to seek Him and believe in His love, while also bringing my questions to Him. I picture a little girl, crawling into the lap of her father, crying over the pain she sees or feels, yet experiencing His comforting presence and love...even when she doesn't fully understand the situation at hand.
"Why, O Lord, do you stand far away? Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?...O Lord, you hear the desire of the afflicted; you will strengthen their heart; you will incline your ear to do justice to the fatherless and the oppressed, so that man who is of the earth may strike terror no more."
Psalm 10:1, 17-18